Seeing Through Rose Colored Glasses
Rose colored glasses, lens, filter, post processing of pictures.. all the same in this case.
The saying "seeing the world with rose colored glasses" was always understood by me growing up to mean something negative. "Too idealistic, bleeding heart...." or the ever so popular "Well, I'm just a realist." I get it. I really do. Dreaming, vision boards, seeing the good seems so woo-woo (for lack of a better term.) However, it's those actions that lead us to make choices that will then lead us to where we want to be. No, not by magic (side note: I do believe in magic, it's really just like believing in miracles, what's the difference?)
A recent death in the family has the vibe here on the farm a little low. These times do make it a littler harder to be optimistic, or do I dare say, see the world through rose colored glasses. Yet, life goes on. Death does serve as the ultimate reminder that tomorrow isn't promised.
Despite the sadness (this was a sudden death) it is fall and just like many people, it's my most favorite time of the year.
I walked away from the long list of chores today, got my camera out and walked the property. To clear my mind or maybe it was to think, I'm not quite sure. I was not super close to this family member, but still the loss affects me. It also has me asking questions and getting answers.
The conclusion that I have come to is that although we will miss this person, he lived life on his terms. For that, I admire him. He was ill and didn't tell anyone. I am not sure if he knew how ill he was, but the fact remains, he wasn't going to seek any kind of medical intervention. While that's hard for many to understand, the bottom line is still that he lived and died, on his terms.
This got me thinking... am I living on my terms? In many ways, yes, I am. There are some issues that I need to address, but for the most part I am. What about you? Are you living on your own terms? Are you balancing your life with work and play? Are you feeding your soul in nature? If not, you have some work to do. I think it's a pretty powerful thing to have said someone lived on their own terms and I want that said about me when my time here on Earth is over.
In the meantime, I am enjoying the subtle hints of fall. I haven't seen any blazing red or deep orange leaves yet, but I see enough to make me take in all that fall has to offer; the warm days and cool nights, no bugs and hoodies.
I have so much to be grateful for and I don't take anything in my life for granted. Not to say each day I am brimming with gratitude and joy, I am not. What helps in the times of sorrow and questioning is immersing myself in what I am grateful for. The animals I am entrusted to care for a big part of my life.
There is something about horses that makes time stand still. Just being around them is therapy. I learn a lot from them as they are always in the moment, always right here, right now.
I don't watch the news anymore. I have only pages and people on my Facebook that make me happy. I am well aware of all the suffering and catastrophic events that happen every day and if I focused on that, I would too be a "realist." So I remain aware yet not consumed with the bad out there. I do my part with the matters that mean something to me and where I feel I can make a difference. Of course I get sad, angry, frustrated.. I am human. Thankfully, my "emotional recovery" time is much faster these days. Through it all though, I am consciously seeing the world in rose colored glasses. I wish this for you as well.